Ambitions?
26 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: #ambitions #future #sort #life
Trying out the WordPress app right now(even though it’s alr been in my phone like forever). Anyways it’s 2.34am and yes, people get all emotional at this timing(FYI, it’s not the “Oh god why are you doing this to me” kind of emotional.) Just..been sorting out things lately(still sorting), thinking about life as a whole, afterall it’s 2012 right, kind of a start. I can’t multitask, I admit, thus been like MIA recently.. But I’m back in business baby!
I was thinking what’s my actual dreams, “actual” because it’s like I’ve been saying I wanna do this, I’ll be this in future…*dadadadada* and I didn’t really carry out any actions to make it happen. Then i recalled I have this crazy ambition since young, I wanna be a singer, a successful one. I know it’s like crazy talk because I don’t own an amazing, breathtaking voice. I wanna be a singer because…I guess I just love singing. If you would read my mind, every single thing I see I would relate them to the lyrics in the songs, the feelings I had and have, in the past and current, I can link all of them to songs. & at home, I sing, when im doing work, bathing, even to stylus!
Another “between realistic and non realistic” ambition of mine, is actually be an artist, the kind you pick up a pencil and draw on a paper. Maybe I can do some oil paintings, charcoal drawings or using whatever mediums. This is the reason why I chose Art over D&T in high sch, thinking that decision is getting me closer to THAT ambition. However after my ‘O’s I didn’t really continue intensively on drawing and stuff. After getting into poly, from time to time I did have chances to draw a little something be it for school works or my friends, but not really drawing drawing kind. Actually I regret deeply not being determine and went with Apparel Design, but oh well.. I did make great friends in my current course didn’t I? (;
So now, I’ve decided, and I hope I won’t stop halfway or not even halfway for whatever reasons. I will take chances when there are for me when it comes to fulfilling my singer dream. If there isn’t any chances, I swear I’ll find the chances myself when everything else are doing great.
But right now, being an artist seems to be more possible, okay maybe is not really possible but is something I can work on more, practically. Right now I actually drew something randomly halfway. I’m starting to draw, as in like I’ll try make it everyday, go buy a smaller drawing pad so I can bring it everywhere.
I know this is another crazy talk, an insane one, but i do actually would want to be a tattoo artist. Read up and research about it all this while and it stoked me. Really would want to put my drawings on someone’s body someday. It’ll be damn, really freaking awesome amazing *whatever astonishing words to be inserted*. While I’m researching on various tattoo artists I focus more on their paperworks, their paintings and stuffs, & those are so fucking awesome. It’s still art end of the day. So mom, I’ve been telling you this, and I’m saying it again, stop being so skeptical about tattoos means bad. On this note, yes I perfectly “pure” now, and yes, I would want to be inked in future(:
